Since lockdown started almost two months ago, all I have seen being posted are articles on why we all have to keep productive during this time or why we should ignore the pressure of being productive. For me, I have decided to make lockdown a balance of both of these things and it is something I recommend all of you do as well.
I hope that by sharing my experience in lockdown so far and how I’ve kept it ‘balanced’ can be of help and assistance in one way or another.
Some days, I feel completely unmotivated and worn out where all I do is stare aimlessly at my phone or a blank wall. On other days, I simply want to relax by binging my favourite TV shows on Netflix like ‘Suits’ and ‘Gossip Girl’, sitting in the sun or eating/drinking whatever the hell I want. What I have learned during this lockdown is that you should not feel guilty for having days like these. Don’t let someone else or a stupid online article tell you that you are being lazy and wasting your time. The truth is, everyone has these days whether they admit it or not, even the people who are ‘busy’ 24/7.
I’ve had these days almost weekly since lockdown began. Although I sometimes feel like I should be doing something more with my time, I keep reminding myself that what I do or do not get up to is my own business. If I feel like I want a couple of days avoiding almost anything productive, more often than not, I let myself do it. These are the days that can give you so much time to either reflect or just enjoy your own space. It’s also important to check in with reality every so often and make sure that you are content and happy. This can be hard to do if you’re constantly trying to find ways to fill your time.
However, whilst giving yourself a rest is important, you should not be made to feel guilty for keeping productive all the time either. If you are someone who wants to fill their time as much as possible during this lockdown, then do it. Don’t let anyone stop you.
On the days that I’ve had enough motivation, I have spent my time doing more baking, starting my blog again, and taken up running. When lockdown started, I couldn’t run for one minute without feeling exhausted and the idea of running in front of other people was incredibly daunting. However, with the help of my boyfriend, I realised that if it’s something I wanted to try and become good at, then why not do it? Two months on and I can now run for 20 minutes straight. It is incredibly tough but I feel so good about myself afterward and the adrenaline keeps me going for the rest of the day.
I mentioned a couple of posts back that I took a long break from blogging due to having a Marketing Internship which I wanted to devote all my time to as it was my first career ‘break’ if you will. Whilst this is true, I realised during this time how much I missed writing my thoughts down and helping other people. With all of us being thrown by COVID-19, I realised it was an opportunity. What better time to connect with others when we’re all thrown into the same situation at the same time? I have only been blogging again for around a month and I already feel so much happier and more connected to the blogging community than I ever have.
Baking is an activity I have always loved. As a kid, I was always finding any excuse to bake cookies or cakes because I found it so much fun. It was also a great way to pass the time that didn’t evolve staring at a screen. During this lockdown, I have made a few recipes including chocolate crispy cakes and Lemon Drizzle cake. Whilst making them, I felt like a little kid again and loved the feeling of being in my little world for a while.
Being and staying productive has been made harder due to the pandemic, but it has not been made impossible. What I am trying to say by sharing my experiences in lockdown, is that it is okay if you are keeping busy all the time, but it is also okay if you are using this time to relax and check-in with yourself as well. As I hope you can see from this post, I have been balancing both and it’s made this experience one hundred times easier to cope with.
If there’s anything I want you to take away from this post, it’s that no person or media outlet should make you feel guilty for however you’re choosing to spend this time during lockdown.